Tuesday, June 14, 2005

zombie

So Emily read my tarot the other day. She's doing a course on it. And the cards that I flipped over weren't what I was expecting at all. (You ask a question, and the cards will give you a past, present , future perspective on things.)

It also said that if I don't get rest and relaxation soon, I'm going to collapse/get ill/die. This was last week. And last week I was running on empty. Today I am just about dead. And don't think I'm trying not to get sleep in here! Or trying to spend time by myself, or trying to be the proverbial sloth in the front of the TV.
But it was my turn to host book club last night, and people only went home at midnight. Now a mate of mine from New York is in town and only for a few days, so I have to go and see him. And when I do sleep, I just get more tired.

Today is Hell. The bags under my eyes are so bulged, that it looks as though two hovercrafts have parked on my cheekbones. The boss probably thinks I'm a drug addict. I'm also VERY slow today. The synapses aren't firing quite as sharply as they should, so all my reactions are delayed. I feel as though I may burst into tears anytime. People are putting on the pressure, my story was edited to shit, I had to drive my shitty car to work today because the other one ran out of petrol, I feel incompetent, I'm losing track of time and space, and although I feel like mauling people out of sheer irritation, quite frankly I don't have the energy.

I am hibernating tonight. Will answer no phones. Will take no shit. Will be in bed at 7:00pm.

9 comments:

janie q said...

sounds like a good plan, hope it works

Peas on Toast said...

Thanks Janie - me too. I may have to resort to sleeping tablets, but if that's the case - hit me with whatever you've got Mr Pharmacist.

Stephanie said...

Poor sausage! Get some sleep, girl. And take drugs if you need to. I find music helps (Iron and Wine perhaps?) and a mug of rooisbos tea. :)

Peas on Toast said...

Steph you drink rooibos? Fantastic! If there's one export that my country got right, it's rooibos tea.

In fact, enjoying a cuppa right now. The sipping motion is keeping me awake...

Stephanie said...

The most beautiful person I have ever met is a girl from South Africa who worked at my office for a few years. She swore by rooibos and turned me on to it. Clearly, the rooibos wasn't the secret to her beauty but I drink it anyway because it is so nice.

She had perfect hair, skin and nails.. She was also extremely intelligent and married the kindest, sweetest and most stand-up guy I had ever met. I was very jealous, but she was so nice and friendly that you just had to love her. Anyhow, we both drink rooisbos and that is where the similarity ends. :)

Peas on Toast said...

That's awesome. What a great embassador for South Africa! :)
Rooibos with no milk and a snitch of honey is the best thing in the world.

And if say, Kate Hudson told me that her beauty secret was to put bird pooh on her face, I'd probably do it too, because she is so lovely. (Rooibos is way better than tha though)

Blog ho said...

i hope the sleep plans work out..but i'll bet they don't.

Binsk said...

That sucks! I know exactly how you feel. Hopefully the time alone and lots of sleep will make you all better again.

Nettie said...

Rooibos, huh? Sounds like something I need to find.