Wednesday, July 06, 2005

at peace

Thanks everyone for their endurance and kind comments about my ex and my fucked-up life.
Last night I met up with a mutual friend of both of ours. It was the best thing I've done for ages. I cried, sobbed and just about unravelled, but it felt wonderful. Told him how I am (still) in love with two people. Friend said that my ex broke down over the weekend too. (Huh?) Apparently he thinks I'm just a man-eater so he just did the deed before I did. (Huh?) And he still loves me apparently. (WHAT?)
All this aside, I am at peace, and long may it last. I'm going to try and let go and just let karma and life do its course. I know I will always love him, but I'm over all this turmoil. We may have insane chemsitry, but that doesn't mean we should be together. I am with Steve and don't want to hurt him. So from today: I'm going to try and be mature about all of this. If I mention the ex from now on, it will be because perhaps I bumped into him or perhaps I'm just airing my flotsam and jetsam. Right. Enough. Moving right along.

I saw The Castle last night for some comedy relief. What a flipping fantastic movie. Just watch it, that's all I'm going to say. If you fnd stereotypes halarious, then this one's for you. If you find Australian archetypes funny, then this one is also for you.

"You get these eye masks in the plane...they're complimentary...you also get a choice! Beef or chicken! What a ripper!"

OK just watch it.

7 comments:

Stephanie said...

Glad you are feeling a bit better about things. Sorry if I sounded glib in my first comment yesterday. Take care of yourself. xx

Peas on Toast said...

You didn't sound glib at all.
Bring on the weekend ;)

Better Safe Than Sorry said...

it sounds like your new bf is a prince, you're lucky to have him. i'd do anything for my daughter to meet one like that, she seems to only date a**holes. positive thoughts, it'll be great.

Paperslut said...

Hey,
- Are you nuts? Depends. Have you been to therapy for long?
- Is it handable? Depends on how much you REALLY want to do it. Everyone wants to learn to play the guitar. The perseverant ones eventually learn. The passionate ones find it a piece of cake. Time management - something i suck at.
- Is the self-satisfaction worth it? Self-satisfaction is always worth it. Damnit woman, haven't you ever shagged? :D
- Are you selling your soul? You only sell your soul to something you don't believe in.

Bottomline - if you really want to, do it now. When you get old, you're too busy worrying about pension. If I were you, I'd do it.

And funny movies always help. Dunno if I've already recommended, but if you can, watch Harold and Kumar Go To Whitecastle.

Peas on Toast said...

Just so that people know what we talking about - I was discussing with Wonderwall the pros and cons of doing my honours in journalism part-time. :)

Harold and Kumar - loved it! LOVED IT! Definitely appeals to my sense of humour, especially loved 'Freakshow.' If you loved that, then The Castle has your name written all over it mate.

Third World Ant said...

Firstly, apologies for not writing. I'm working at SARS, no internet access to my name, so I'm regressing to the dark ages. I still love you, don't feel ignored...
Secondly, I told you so. I hope the news Richard 'did you in' first rang little memory bells chiming in exactly with what I told you he'd done. But let me not brag. Let's talk it over face to face, hmmm, now that I'm back in the 'burg?

Peas on Toast said...

Third World Ant - my long lost friend!
You're working where?? SARS! Shut up - look at my first entry of the day.
I feel really really sorry for you my dear.

Secondly, yes, now that you're back, we're doing TIger on FRiday - keen??