Friday, November 25, 2005

unexpected stuff

Hit my first getting-over-Steve obstacle yesterday: he's going on a date with someone and has probably been with her before and will be with her.
Felt like I'd been kicked in the stomach, couldn't breathe for like an hour, so my colleagues to my to the Radium Beer Hall during lunch for a double gin and tonic. Least to say, it sorted me out somewhat.

It sorted me out because: fuck that, I will now date with a vengeance.

Last night I met Saturday Night Conquest for a drink, mainly to put these proverbial cards on the table. It was honestly the nicest night ever! We had drinks, then he took me out to dinner to this amazing oriental restaurant at Melrose Arch. We sat on the couches at Moyo, shnuggled a little, then hit the Melrose Arch hotel for a cup of Earl Grey tea. It was amazing: we chatted about how I'm not gunning for a relationship, and then general stuff like jobs, architecture (which we both love), Germany (cos that's where he's from), and how he's not pushing me into anything. Yay!

Also, strangely how he's blue eyed/blond Ayrian race looking, which is strange for what I usually go for, and how I'm brunette/brown eyed and he doesn't usually go for this.
Was great, and it sorted out my sadness one time.
Got to bed at 2:00am.

Then I got one of those 2:30 am calls from my friend who'd had too much to drink. He does this way too often.

18 comments:

Stephanie said...

Glad to hear that you had a great time with Mr.Saturday Night. :)

And about Steve? From what you've said here I kind of feel sorry for the new girl he's been on a date with. You deserve far better.

Peas on Toast said...

Hi Steph

Well, I have no idea about Steve's thoughts: he claims to still love me, and thinks dating will somehow bring us back together. Yeah right! Dating means you're moving on.
I just don't feel ready to be completely 'replaced' as yet. And its though I've just been fucking replaced in one foul swoop. That is the hardest part.

I hate Steve today. Maybe that'll change tomorrow, but right now I'd rather eat glass than give him the satisfaction of me not handling this.

Mr Saturday Night is a real gentleman. I think. I thought that about Steve to start with. But Saturday Night is cool, not orgasmic, but cool. :)

Billy said...

The dating hurdle is a cracker! I ran straight into it after my "the one" break up a few years ago. It hurt bad! Somehow the idea of it no longer being mutually sad hurts the most! Time does heal it all though (along with booze and good mates)and it eventually makes you stronger (and more tolerant to alcohol...)I have since endured her getting married and yesterday the happy news that she is pregnant. It stopped hurting after the wedding and now its all good. I am even concidering sending a thoughtful gift or spending the cash on booze....
Mr Saturday night sounds like a winner. Hope it remains that way or becomes orgasmic.

Peas on Toast said...

Hey Billy - a 'cracker' - very descriptive, like it. I still think you should spend the cash on booze, rather than her though. You may have more fun :)

Mr Saturday Night is great. I'm liking him more and more. But not really in THAT way. Maybe when I'm ready for something more in the future...

Billy said...

As long as the bridge never gets burnt. In the aftermath a few years back i did very well at repelling anything that looked anything like another chance to hurt or be hurt again but never said never or broke ties. When the storm clouds lifted and the gap between the crack and the thunder grew longer i saw those same people in an entirely new way.

Hang in there little one, it gets better and then oh so good.

Peas on Toast said...

Thanks Billy. I think I'm going through the seriously liberating ANGRY-UNBELIEVABLY angry stage: Like he mustn'y even try and contact me right now and today I hate him.

Perhaps next week it'll be more like "oh well." All these emotionas are incredibly exhausting!

Billy said...

Point taken on the booze.....

Peas on Toast said...

I'm going to a dinner party tonight involving lots of wine.

Bring.It.On.

Better Safe Than Sorry said...

sounds like you had a wonderful night, exactly what you need. as for steve, sounds more like he's confused then replacing you, most people can't just snap their fingers and erase five years. concentrate more on yourself, not so much moving on from him and what he's doing, more starting another piece of your life, with or without him.

Peas on Toast said...

Thanks Janie - yip the German managed to distract me for a while, and it was great.

I've secured myself another date, but this time with a good friend. He needs a partner for his year-end ball. So it'll be a blast. Looking forward, looking forward! :)

Christopher said...

Glad to hear you had a good time. Just remember to remind yourself that you deserve this.

"Claims to still love me, and thinks dating will somehow bring us back together."

I got that too. She said that she was figuring herself out until she became her old self again. Since when was any cathartic revelations made by banging someone else?

Horseshit.

Feel nothing but pity for the guy as you enjoy yourself. I will bet you that things will start happening for you now you are more liberated. I don't know much but I do know that.

Peas on Toast said...

Chris- exactly! How is it that we'd somehow magically get back together when he's banging his date (a hockey girl from his club-GOD) left, right and centre?

Christ. I'm starting to feel reeeeeally angry. So angry in fact, I could slash his tyres and burn all his stuff right now.

But I digress. I think I need to start humping anything with three legs right now myself.

OK. Being irrational. Where's my wine?

Billy said...

Have a blast tonight. May it help the discomfort in anyway it can. Try get to bed before sunrise as i find loser syndrome is a bitch when light appears before sleep takes over....

Billy said...

Humping anything with three legs! Brilliant!
Have never felt so demeened and laughed at the same time!

Peas on Toast said...

Motto of the day: (I had no idea anger could be so liberating??)

Ex Can Bang Dyke Hockey Bird
But Then I Can Hump A Three Legged Sex Muffin Who Doesn't Bat For the Other Team.

Bang this bastard: I hate you. Die.
(That's to the new Ex.)

Billy said...

Well done! Get it all out!
Sex muffin 1 - Rough Dyke Chick 0

Better Safe Than Sorry said...

don't waste all your energy here, save some for that three legged sex muffin;)
is he gonna be in for a surprise, woohoo!!!

Peas on Toast said...

He might've been banging the hockey dyke/chick all season - but then some studly sex muffin is going to be the brunt of some very confusingly erotic anger this weekend! :)

Woohoo!