I've found a coping mechanism that isn't wholly productive at the moment.
It seems to envelope every facet of my life right now, and it's completely involuntary.
I've walled myself off.
I am a walking robot at the moment, as paperwork, bureaucracy, a boyfriend, and a freelance project demand my immediate and emotional attention. How do I deal? Mainly I ignore it. The freelance project is the one thing that is getting me through this current phase, where I close my bedroom door and pore over my computer, smoking cigarettes and drinking juice. I'm not even drinking wine anymore, it really is that bad.
As for the rest of my life, I'm really kind of sliding. Finances aren't looking hot at all, although since I haven't been pissing cash against a wall as per usual, this is most depressing. I suppose most of it has gone towards my electric windows.
So I'm dealing by just shutting off my emotions and going about everything robot-style. Although I can't seem to see the finish line at present.