Friday, August 14, 2009

:(

I am really missing someone at the moment.

Someone I’ve known for almost 4 months.

Someone who just gets it. Gets me.

That’s quite a rare thing. That hasn’t happened in a fuck-long time. Not everyone understands an eccentric, stoic, into-self-preservation, now-very-guarded, no-more-nonsense soul, but someone out there does.

I’ve become very good at hiding stuff these days. Finally. Because I never used to be able to do that.

I now have the ability hide a heart on my sleeve.
Fancy that. Who fucken knew.

My life – personal, heart-related stuff –at the moment - is fairly complicated, I’ll say that much. If only you fucken knew, but I’ll save the granular semantics for the deep recesses of my brain, rather than here.

This person doesn’t live in my country. But of course he doesn’t. Obviously.

Perhaps I had too many drinks last night. My German friend/colleague is out at the moment, and it’s nice to have his face in town.

This negates completely from the fact. That sometimes you really just miss someone. Whether there’s no reason, rhyme, logic, anything that would make it remotely sensicle. Geographically or otherwise.

So yes. Not many people know, not even half of my friends. (See? I’m gooood. I’m very nearly…demure, like, almost.)

So that’s what it is. Nothing more; nothing less.

20 comments:

The Levi Store said...

aaah! So miss Peas has little private thought boxes as well, I thought I was alone in my quest for emo compatmentalisation.. :) A big word that... So you have a German box? is it just an emo box? or a play box? dnt expect you to tell.. juggling boxes can be difficult Miss Peas.. balls are easier.. I have a few boxes in the air right now.. bUT then the lurkers know that.. :)
Juggle them boxes!

The Levi Store said...

"Demure"... signifies lots of emo..

Just sayin.. :)

Peas on Toast said...

Levi - yeah, I can be emo. Not proud of it, but there's a tiny box with the word Demure-Emo written on it somewhere in my hypothalamus.

Boxes, balls......

The Levi Store said...

My hypowhatever must be over active then, emo is what gives us medtranean folks the zest for life! You be You!

Peas on Toast said...

It does hey?
When we're sad/emo, we're REALLY sad. When we're happy, we're REALLY happy. People of extremes, eh?

The Levi Store said...

Yip! Emo is the stuff that puts champagne bubbles in our blood! We cook, cookie!

Revolving Credit said...

Don't tell me you forgot the Dolphin in Istanbul??

Peas on Toast said...

Rev - no, after much thought, I decided not to travel with the Dolphin.

I heard a story whereby someone put a pair of tweezers into the battery area of a dildo just before he went through security in Thailand. And......there was an embarrassing aftermath. Funny, if you're not the butt thereof.
:)

Revolving Credit said...

Does a dolphin qualify as a dangerous weapon?

'Fly this plane to Damascus of the co-pilot gets sodomised??'

Would this work if you flew Virgin?

'Move it or lose it!'

Secret said...

I realise I must either sound like a total phony or a great story teller, but everything I write in my comments is true, I PROMISE!!

Anyhow, moving on.
So when I was in college I met this guy, Tony who I totally fell head over heels for. Unfortunately we were both dating other people and decided to leave things as they were and go our seperate ways.
Now he lives in the Free State and Im in Cape Town and we are both crazy about each other, but geographically our relationship is impossible. He has work there and I have work and a flat here.
The sad thing is that he gets me like no guy had before, and I regretted "leaving" him at the end of college so much, and NOW, when we are both free, per se, to pursue a relationship, our timing is just so off.

Sucks, man.

The Levi Store said...

imagine what in flight chaos a full sized Rabbit would cause.. Or do i mean a bunny.. :-)

Secret said...

Wow, I realise my comment is smack bang in the middle of a conversation about hi jacking planes with dildos....off the topic much?

The Levi Store said...

miss Secret.. Speakin of honesty.. unless im blind i cant see any active blogging on your side.. So I cant comment honestly.. :-) Is this a bloggy holiday for you? Enjoyed reading your site though.. x

The Levi Store said...

slightly.. :-) you got dildoed honey! X

Secret said...

Haha, Levi.
Sorry, sir.
Well, I tend to lose inspiration every so often...Ill get my ass into gear and start the blogging thing again.

The Levi Store said...

Secret.. we could organise some inspiration for you at the store.. :-) but that would be wrong to suggest here on this site.. So wrong.. As wrong as a Rabbit without batteries.. :-)

Secret said...

Lol. Indeed.

Peas on Toast said...

Rev - hahahahaha :)

Secret - ah babe, that's tragic! :(
I hate stories that don't have happy endings, I won't lie. But then again, never say never - who knows WHAT could happen in the future right?

Levi - it qwould be good in-flight entertainment no doubt.

the branch manager said...

Well, fuck, Peas, everybody knows now. Everybody knows the dice are loaded, everybody knows the good guys lost...

Ooops, having a Leonard Cohen attack briefly...

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