Friday, July 30, 2010

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I'm officially struggling.

It's been two weeks and 1 day. And my job is still confusing, overwhelming, what the heck do I do?, I've yet to see much of my housemates, I feel like a loser, and like today, feel very very flat.

(Might've been because Poen and I went out to smash mojitos and feel wiped out this morning), but on that note - there's one thing I thank fuck for, and that's having one of my best mate's here. Poen leaves to go and live in Kenya in a month. So we have a lot to pack in. But she's also been amazingly supportive in a time where I actually have no idea what I'm doing.

I'm oscillating between kind of knowing a bit about my new job and then realising I know nothing at all. I hate being like this. I need to know how to do something straight away.

I don't know whether I'm putting undue pressure on myself or whether this is normal or what.

I think I need to have another little cry.

7 comments:

cassey said...

I think it's normal, and probably due to all the emotions whirling around premove. Hope a cry helps.

The Chantal said...

2 weeks is nothing, don't be so hard on yourself, things sounded like they were picking up the other day, don't let this get you down again. What is your new job???

I'm so happy you're blogging so regularly even though you've moved continents and started a new job, thanks and well done :P

James said...

It's totally normal Peas - hang in there, it'll get better soon!

kyknoord said...

If it's any consolation, I've been with my current company for ten years and I still have no clear idea of what I'm doing. Crying definitely helps. Especially in meetings. With clients.

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Boomkind said...

Pea's, I have moved many times and one thing you need to do is give yourself time. Throw your toys out once in a while and go off the rails but one day you'll wake up and say "stuff this" and things will fall in place. It's liike magic!