I'm officially struggling.
It's been two weeks and 1 day. And my job is still confusing, overwhelming, what the heck do I do?, I've yet to see much of my housemates, I feel like a loser, and like today, feel very very flat.
(Might've been because Poen and I went out to smash mojitos and feel wiped out this morning), but on that note - there's one thing I thank fuck for, and that's having one of my best mate's here. Poen leaves to go and live in Kenya in a month. So we have a lot to pack in. But she's also been amazingly supportive in a time where I actually have no idea what I'm doing.
I'm oscillating between kind of knowing a bit about my new job and then realising I know nothing at all. I hate being like this. I need to know how to do something straight away.
I don't know whether I'm putting undue pressure on myself or whether this is normal or what.
I think I need to have another little cry.