Is there such a thing as a 24 hour crush?
Like you have a jones for someone for, say, a day?
I was sick, so maybe I'm not even thinking straight. But at least I can say it was a 24 hour thing, because I won't tolerate this sort of behaviour from myself.
I'm a career girl. No time for daydreaming about stupid men. And no, it's not any one of the Germans.
It's all nice thinking about someone a lot and stuff, but this was highly impractical, if not completely out of the question. So many reasons why. But also, I'm winning at being the happy single lady, remember.
God I frustrate myself. Stop it. NOW.
Besides, my nose is falling off my face and I feel like death.
Flu is always under-exaggerated. When someone says they have the 'flu, nobody really takes that seriously. I don't want to sound like a man here at any cost – but yesterday I was dying. (A sick man always believes he's dying, but again, no one really takes that seriously.)
I half passed out in the canteen at lunch and was sent home. Thinking of somebody else and wiping my nose repeatedly.
This stops today. The thinking of another person thing.
I'm finally learning how to be an unfeeling emotionless robot in the last while. And it was working just fine. I am SO cross with myself.
But never fear, now that my fever is subsiding, I'm back on track. Eradicating all silly stupid man thoughts. I'm in control, can't believe I was even thinking about this person. The New Peas would never do that.