Tuesday, January 11, 2005

eeeeeek!

Streesssss. Welcome back to 2005 in a marketing and advertising department. I need to draw up, write and send out two very important presentations before the end of this month. That may seem like a long time, but its not. Eeeeeek! The reason being is that I need to get info from everybody to do this. Which is as easy as sucking shit through a straw, getting blood from a stone. Most people are useless at this, and the big boss is on my back. Anyway, breathe, Ill be fine. Why does my desk always look like a bomb has hit it?? And why has Home and Away been taken off the TV? I shook the Mystic Ball that I gave Jo for her birthday and asked if Richard loved me. Ever. It said, both times, "Too soon to predict." Huh? It's already happened you stupid ball!!!! I feel quite feverish. I hope I can play my "Pimp my Ride" tape on the way home. Because it rocks. That'll make me feel way better. I posted my CV o nto monster.com for jobs in San Francisco (going with steve at the end of the year). And got a call back! Position for a marketing Manager! No kidding! hectic! Although I'd rather be a reporter. Anyway, its too soon so I left it. Maybe Ill forget about R when we start our new lives there?

8 comments:

zuzula said...

just been catching up with your blog - sounds like there's a lot going on in your head right now. I absolutely agree that it's possible to be in love with two people at once (shit, I've been there too. I almost couldn't believe it myself at the time). Sounds like you've made the right call though - unlike me who always picks the bastards in the end, damn them.

Peas on Toast said...

Phew, yes my life has definately been a little on the hectic side at the moment. But getting through it. That's the problem, I stayed with Steve who's great, but I'm still being a total idiot when it comes to Vile Richard. I still love him and I have no idea why. But getting better. Not taking phone with me every room I go to. Not scanning a parking lot for his car. Etc etc. Haven't done one drive-by though, so very very proud of myself!!!!!!!

zuzula said...

The drive-by is the worst - glad you've managed to avoid that. I did it once and cried so hard I had to pull over (which induced further misery in the form of intense paranoia that he would come out of his flat and see me)

Peas on Toast said...

Yes I've forbidden drive-bys. In fact because I haven't seen him in a month, I'm intensely scared of bumping into him at a club or the supermarket. I have no idea what I'll do in a frenzied and frazzled whacked out state of mind. Do I say "hi" casusally and cooly, or pretend everything's just PEACHY and say, "hi!!!!!! how ARE you?!" Also if he's with another woman, God only knows what I'll do. I may just collapse in a usless heap and cry. Very attractive indeed.

zuzula said...

just try not to blurt out saying 'Hi, l love you'....

Peas on Toast said...

Touchay. Will try not to talk period. Just nod, smile and get the hell out of there.

zuzula said...

I once hid in the handbag section of a department store for 20 minutes because I saw an ex fling walk in and couldn't bear the thought of bumping into him somewhere between bathroom accessories and the exit. Didn't trust myself not to say something twattish - and also was one of those days when i hadn't made any effort to look remotely attractive - old trainers, greasy hair, the lot. typical!

Peas on Toast said...

Classic. I've made a rule: will always wear a hat when hair is greasy, even if just need to pop down to shop for ciggies. I live within walking distance of a Seven Eleven (very very bad), and I have this nasty little habit of walking over there in my 101 Dalmation pyjamas. Must stop must stop.