Streesssss. Welcome back to 2005 in a marketing and advertising department. I need to draw up, write and send out two very important presentations before the end of this month. That may seem like a long time, but its not. Eeeeeek! The reason being is that I need to get info from everybody to do this. Which is as easy as sucking shit through a straw, getting blood from a stone. Most people are useless at this, and the big boss is on my back. Anyway, breathe, Ill be fine. Why does my desk always look like a bomb has hit it?? And why has Home and Away been taken off the TV? I shook the Mystic Ball that I gave Jo for her birthday and asked if Richard loved me. Ever. It said, both times, "Too soon to predict." Huh? It's already happened you stupid ball!!!! I feel quite feverish. I hope I can play my "Pimp my Ride" tape on the way home. Because it rocks. That'll make me feel way better. I posted my CV o nto monster.com for jobs in San Francisco (going with steve at the end of the year). And got a call back! Position for a marketing Manager! No kidding! hectic! Although I'd rather be a reporter. Anyway, its too soon so I left it. Maybe Ill forget about R when we start our new lives there?
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just been catching up with your blog - sounds like there's a lot going on in your head right now. I absolutely agree that it's possible to be in love with two people at once (shit, I've been there too. I almost couldn't believe it myself at the time). Sounds like you've made the right call though - unlike me who always picks the bastards in the end, damn them.
Phew, yes my life has definately been a little on the hectic side at the moment. But getting through it. That's the problem, I stayed with Steve who's great, but I'm still being a total idiot when it comes to Vile Richard. I still love him and I have no idea why. But getting better. Not taking phone with me every room I go to. Not scanning a parking lot for his car. Etc etc. Haven't done one drive-by though, so very very proud of myself!!!!!!!
The drive-by is the worst - glad you've managed to avoid that. I did it once and cried so hard I had to pull over (which induced further misery in the form of intense paranoia that he would come out of his flat and see me)
Yes I've forbidden drive-bys. In fact because I haven't seen him in a month, I'm intensely scared of bumping into him at a club or the supermarket. I have no idea what I'll do in a frenzied and frazzled whacked out state of mind. Do I say "hi" casusally and cooly, or pretend everything's just PEACHY and say, "hi!!!!!! how ARE you?!" Also if he's with another woman, God only knows what I'll do. I may just collapse in a usless heap and cry. Very attractive indeed.
just try not to blurt out saying 'Hi, l love you'....
Touchay. Will try not to talk period. Just nod, smile and get the hell out of there.
I once hid in the handbag section of a department store for 20 minutes because I saw an ex fling walk in and couldn't bear the thought of bumping into him somewhere between bathroom accessories and the exit. Didn't trust myself not to say something twattish - and also was one of those days when i hadn't made any effort to look remotely attractive - old trainers, greasy hair, the lot. typical!
Classic. I've made a rule: will always wear a hat when hair is greasy, even if just need to pop down to shop for ciggies. I live within walking distance of a Seven Eleven (very very bad), and I have this nasty little habit of walking over there in my 101 Dalmation pyjamas. Must stop must stop.
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